DearOldGrandma

I went through that for a few years once. You start to distrust yourself and your emotions, and the spiral only deepens. I remember all I would do is work, sometimes eat, sometimes shower, and go to bed. I was just a shell of a person, and I don’t want that for anyone. No one can truly understand unless they’ve had it. It was a long struggle, but I eventually made it out. I hope you do the same.

They’re not justifying racism, they’re explaing how the US has gotten to where it is today and why people act as they do. The culture here regarding it is different compared to most parts of Europe, and people generally are trying very much to combat these issues. But as this is a deeply cultural and historical undertaking in the US, a lot of change - cultural, political, or otherwise - will happen very slowly and will not always appear progressive. Despite recent events, the US has generally - though not always - been making small steps in the right direction here. Seit du Deutsch bist, weißt du, Fortschritt ist kompliziert.

I currently have femoroacetabular impingements, a torn labrum in my left hip, back spasms, and nerve damage throughout my left leg. For my work, I have to pay bills and rent while medical-leave pay only covers 70% of my income. I can barely save enough as it is, so I keep working.

I’ve already had one surgery with two more expected, the final one ideally being a new hip. I’ll use my personal time for recovery and stretch it out with medical leave as needed, but I can’t afford to stop right now. Eventually I want to buy a house and marry my girlfriend.

I tried to rewatch the show for the first time last month since the show ended. I told myself that it couldn’t have been so bad after it began to increasingly deviate from the books, that I was just upset about it at the time.

Nope. I barely made it through S5 and while S6 had its moments, I realized I was only watching for a couple great moments instead of for the sake of watching it. I just wasn’t enjoying it, so I stopped. In earlier seasons, epic moments like these were everywhere. It’s no wonder the show alone built such a large fanbase early on