literally just got perma banned today for disagreeing with a trump supporter who reported me because i told him, among other things, to go fuck himself.

im done with it. fuck reddit.

do the roar

id give you a spot in my bunker…IF I HAD ONE! cries

my assumption is that he wants a guy like that to assist in the operations of a new american run private cartel network, after they have ousted mexican cartels who cant be reasoned with to give up their profits to the US Oligarchs and private contract groups. they get a chance to install their own american run mexican cartel in mexico, and take over their drug trade for private funding operations. it would explain the 3000 troops they sent to the southern boarder, among other “official” reason.

this guy will help them with connecting with private sellers, to private clients, and logistics. im also assuming that this “new silk road” will be heavily monitored under the guise of decentralization and privacy, for use in things like blackmail, and coercion of users. or simply to attack other drug trade networks by undermining their image and pricing.

but what do i know? im just some guy in a bathtub.

get out of bed. brush your teeth. take a shower. get dressed. put on jeans. specifically jeans if you got em’. and a shirt. with underwear and socks.

if you have to do this where one day you get out of bed. thats good. thats a step. maybe tomorrow get out of bed, and go brush your teeth. and the next day get out of bed, brush your teeth, and shower. and so on. the big step is going outside. maybe just opening a window and breathing the air. or standing in your doorway and letting the light hit you for a bit is quite nice.

then maybe after doing this routine for a bit, you can throw on some shoes and go for a walk. maybe just around the yard. maybe the block. wherever you want. bring some music with you or a book. maybe head to a park and enjoy it. take the time to breathe that fresh air, even if its cold out right now. it helps. especially the sun light.

maybe after this try jogging? or maybe some light weights? or just calisthetics if you can. bit by bit. doesnt have to be every day. could be one day a week, then two, maybe three, four, five or six. and then some rest.

then when you feel like your up for it. find a new hobby, or an old one. and enjoy it. learn from it. from yourself.

live your life. enjoy it. theres no expectation from the universe. just experience this life and take joy from it where you can. and value the suffering as well. for it gives you the ability to appreciate the joy of play, and play is anything that brings you fulfillment. could be cooking, friends, music, sports, whatever.

have fun man, dont take life too seriously, nobody ever gets out alive, and thats okay. one day at a time.

after you figured that all out, and if you want a job, maybe get one you find interesting if anything. view it as a stepping stone, an experience, not a career you are a slave to, just…something to do. every day life will teach you something in ways you never expected. and one day in the future life will call upon you to remember what you learned, and you can choose whether or not to apply those lessons as you see fit. you decide your purpose. and thats not meant to pressure you, in fact it releases you from the percieved universal expectation of purpose nearly all of us feel.

you are free. you always have been. you just forgot, brother. its okay. you will get there. i believe in you! carpe diem!